I think we all can relate that this past year has been quite the mood. I went from having some what of a fashion sense to primarily sporting comfy joggers & athleisure wear & being bare faced / no makeup even when I left the house. Old me could never! And honestly, even though I miss some things, I’ve actually gained more confidence in myself than any other year combined. So, really was it all that bad? Ok, some parts were pretty bad ( & still are) but I’m here to take the positive spin on things & let you in on how this pandemic year lead to a more confident me.
I BECAME MORE COMFORTABLE WITH MY NATURAL APPEARANCE
I love the artistry around makeup & find the routine to be very therapeutic at times. Same goes for my hair routine as well. There’s just something about taking your time in the mornings to get fully ready that really puts you on the right track for a productive day. But when you are barely leaving the house, it started to seem pointless. I quickly started just waking up, throwing my hair in a messy bun & going along with my day. And I realized as much as I found my makeup routine to be soothing, I also relied on it to feel more pretty. In the past, I couldn’t image leaving the house even to just run a few errands without makeup on. And I could have never felt comfortable enough to let my dark under eyes show around my boyfriend. Now, I think I wear makeup maybe 2 days a week (if that) & I don’t feel self conscious about it anymore. I just have my skin breath & let the occasional breakout have their moment. Crazy enough, the less makeup I wore the better my skin became anyway.
I DIDN’T HAVE THE NEED TO DRESS TO THE NINES EVERYDAY
Before the pandemic, my appearance meant everything to me. It’s a way to show off your personality without having to say a single word. But there was a sense of lack of contentment. I thought I couldn’t feel pretty in a baggy t-shirt & jeans. Now, I have the same confidence regardless of what I’m wearing & it’s rather empowering. It doesn’t mean I don’t miss dressing up. Believe me, I can’t wait to go to more events & vacations in the future & have an excuse to experiment with fashion. But until then, I’m proud to have gained a type of confidence that revolves more around my personality & what I bring to the table over how I look. Honestly, trying to keep up with trends & what society deems as attractive can be rather exhausting.
MY STORY IS MINE TO TELL & NO ONE ELSE HAS TO UNDERSTAND
Having to basically start my life entirely over after losing my day care job from COVID could have put me in a dark bubble. But I decided to see it as a fresh start & reflect on what I truly wanted in life – like writing. Whatever path you take, there will always be people questioning your every move. I say, do what works for you & f*ck everyone else. Sorry if that sounded harsh, but it’s true. If you listened too hard at every opinion & comment, you probably would immediately halt in your tracks & stop living. So, keep doing what you are doing & write your story how you see fit.
I LEARNED TO LET GO OF THE PAST & ACCEPT IT
During such reflections, I couldn’t help but go down memory lane sometimes. Not to mention, I spent a lot of time decluttering my belongings which drudged up all kinds of memories. I really learned how to accept the ideas of letting go – whether it was physical belongings, people & even thoughts. By having extra time on my hands, I didn’t have an excuse to get out of the process. It was the perfect time to set some things straight for a better future. As much as you wish you could, you can’t change the past. All there is to do is learn from it & move forward. And now, I feel so much lighter with a wave of possibilities.
SIMPLE PLEASURES ARE JUST AS IMPORTANT AS THE BIG MOMENTS
With following the minimalism lifestyle, I’ve always been trying to appreciate the small moments in life more. But during the pandemic, it was a must. I think one of the main reasons I stayed so positive during such tough times was having gratitude for even the most simplest of moments. I made sure to look forward to the nights we binged watched television shows or had movie nights. Quality time cooking dinner, putting together puzzles or even bonfires in the backyard with smores became such highlights. And looking back we now have so many fond memories in our first home. We didn’t need any fancy vacations or events to maintain our relationship. It made me realize, to be happy in life you really don’t need much.
What are some things that made you more confident during the pandemic? What fun memories did you make?